I, like most people, have struggles of my own. Lately, I’ve been having to NOT compare my own struggles with others. I tend to really pity myself and think, “wow, I have it so much harder than she does”.
Please tell me I’m not alone?
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I sat at Jason’s Deli with one of my closest friends the other day after getting a filling. Ouch! (Technically, I got a filling taken out and then replaced!)
As I drooled Taco soup down my chin (she is a good friend so she did tell me every other bite to wipe!) I complained that we’ve been trying for years now to have another baby. We tried for years with our first and it’s just not fair.
We have “unexplained infertility”…so pretty much we’re all good, the doctors just don’t know (and neither do we) why a baby ain’t coming.
However, while I was sitting there complaining (and in so much jaw pain) a man in a quadriplegic wheelchair came to join his friend next to us.
It took about .1 seconds for me to actually hear what I sounded like.
I have so much. I could quickly make a list of the basics I was blessed with, health, clothes, house, family, food…
I pretty much have it all (so to speak). I lack very little in my quaint little life. Except one thing. That one thing I long for more than anything, to hold a little baby in my arms to feel the kicks inside my belly but…shouldn’t I be ok with learning how to wait for at least one thing?
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Have I ever truly had to long for much in my life? I count myself as blessed to struggle with “unexplained infertility”, it’s still hard and I don’t like it at all but I’m moving into a stage where I’m ready to let it start to teach me.
Have you ever longed for something only to find yourself comparing your situation to those around you. A struggle that is compared is like a cavity needing filling. Some feel more pain than others. How could I judge the need, decay, pain, outcome, cause and then rate it to my own?
Gosh that got deep (like my cavity! ha) Comment below and share your struggle. I won’t judge, I 100% promise. It feels like a weight is lifted to share and get it out there!
